Painting another canvas as a form of meditation. I’m trying to teach myself to focus on the process vs outcome – to relax and enjoy the journey – as I create both art and my life. So many self-critical thoughts emerge but once the brush hits the canvas, my mind goes blank and surrenders. Painting away old pain, you could say.
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From my soul to yours,
I wrote this last year during a stressful time I feared losing a loved one. I stumbled upon it again today and was grateful for the reminder.
I went for a walk. It’s been a hard week. I needed guidance.
An hour later, my search led me back to where I began – nowhere. I found nothing.
Defeated, I stood still.
Surrendering, I bared my heavy heart to the heavens, looking up only to find a green sky.
In the Hindu tradition, green is the color of the heart chakra.
Gently, Rumi’s “only through the heart can you touch the sky” whispers to me. I smile and understand.
Be still. Go in. Stop running to the outside. Face your heart and let her speak. Let her break, so that she may break open to receive love. There lies your answer.
Love is always the answer.
Today I felt quite soft and vulnerable so I doodled on a seashell and my hand for a few minutes. Still felt sad after but at least the pain was used to make beauty. I was glad for that. Because sometimes that’s all we can ask of life. That even if happiness is impossible to permanently hold onto, just make the struggle count for something beautiful. No matter how small.
And so today I am sad and scared and uncertain. But these little doodles, insignificant to all but my soul, saved the day. Because while I’m not happy, it meant something – namely that there’s more to life than being happy. There’s meaning, there’s beauty.
Maybe that’s enough.
They told me to walk following the arrows and signs of other’s streets
Don’t look down, just up
And so I listened and I swallowed your maps and I looked both ways and up and up – what a good girl! – I even ran to get there faster faster faster
Following all the directions, running the race, ran ran ran
Until I fell into the forbidden Down
And stared it straight into its face
Only to find in that loud silence my voice once more
An xo and an arrow
Love now the guide, not you
Why didn’t they ever tell us that down there lies the true path we’d all been looking for?
-Through the fall, we fly
On those days when the memories of yesterday dim the light of today’s new dawn…
Throw the sheets off and open wide those blinds that hide. Dry those eyes.
Put your crown back on, goddess
The sun beckons you to shine alongside.
-The Sun is Your Equal, Stand Tall and Don’t Hide
Gandhi used to sit and study in this area as a young student. I like to just reflect here with a coffee sometimes, pondering not necessarily him – he was both a deeply loved and controversial man, and I don’t like to put people on pedestals – but his ideas and what he represents: non-violence. Peace. Grace confronting the worst of humanity. And winning.
“We must be the change we wish to see in the world” floats through my mind, as does an “eye for eye makes the whole world blind”. Especially poignant and ironic words given that across this very street, a bus was bombed that fateful day July 7, 2005 by Al Qaeda.
For me, India’s Independence Day is more than just another holiday. It stands out from America’s Independence Day because August 15, 1947 doesn’t commemorate a battle between good and evil, like how the American Revolution eventually led to independence from the colonizer.
India’s Independence Day is a day that symbolizes the triumph of humanity over our darker, broken shadow sides. There was literally no resistance. It was simply the surrender, the embodiment of peace rather than the ironic fighting for it, that helped melt away “evil.”
Peace helping wash away the walls that harden us as humans, leading to liberation. Achieving peace through becoming, not fighting.
Peace as the way to peace.
Words for both the inner and outer world to ponder.
Happy Independence Day, India.