I want you to find me sexy. (Sexier than his new girl, most definitely.)
I want you to validate my views. (Because I can’t trust myself.)
I want you to think I’m smart and successful. (Because every second I’m reminded by this and this Person’s accomplishment that I am mediocre, at best.)
I want you to think I’m wise and charitable. (Because if I’m not that accomplished, at least I’ve got that whole Spiritual thing going for me, right?)
I want you to like me. (Because it’s so damn hard to like myself.)
—-There is a Difference Between Scar-Expression & Self-Expression
By Sheena Vasani
I wrote this last year during a stressful time I feared losing a loved one. I stumbled upon it again today and was grateful for the reminder.
I went for a walk. It’s been a hard week. I needed guidance.
An hour later, my search led me back to where I began – nowhere. I found nothing.
Defeated, I stood still.
Surrendering, I bared my heavy heart to the heavens, looking up only to find a green sky.
In the Hindu tradition, green is the color of the heart chakra.
Gently, Rumi’s “only through the heart can you touch the sky” whispers to me. I smile and understand.
Be still. Go in. Stop running to the outside. Face your heart and let her speak. Let her break, so that she may break open to receive love. There lies your answer.
Love is always the answer.